Angry

According to Oxford dictionary Angry is : feeling or showing strong annoyance, displeasure, or hostility; full of anger so that was how i feel last week and surprisingly this week. Actually, to be angry is an option which i can choose not to be but sometimes like what people always say, everything has a limit, including how people feels be it happy, sad or angry.
There is a story entitled Anger Management and by reading it's title you know what the story is all about. I think, to critic that movie, it is all about self control and being considerate towards everything and everyone. Avoid the negative thinking and stop being judgemental. Always put yoursel in someone's shoes. If you can mange this, you are fine. 

Feelings could be affected by many reasons. Surroundings, Human, animals, things, memories and etc. All of these could affect your feelings and it is up to you and me to react on it. Some may be cool but some may not. Some put it away but others might handle it dfferently. There is no right and wrongs for being angry as long you won't get your self into trouble!
Some people takes time to recover from angry. As for me, most of my anger last only within 10 seconds while the longest was 1 incident where it took me a year plus to cool down! It happen when a friend (a best friend actually) had a conflict when we were in the junior secondary school. It was a cold war indeed. But after that one long year, i started to think why should i continue with this feeling since we were grown up and getting older? Evantually we made up and on the same day, we went to watch The terminator 2 at the Miramar cineplex. We are still friend until now though we are no longer 'Best Friend'.
To end this post, i rather be happy than sad. If i may get angry, let it be within seconds and if i HAVE to be angry, please leave me alone.... but i'll get back to you when i'm okay.

 A gentle answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger - Proverbs 15:1

New Year 2014

Hey all, Happy New year 2014 and i hope it is not that too late to wish all a belated Merry Christmas 2013. So what had i achieved from last years? Hmm let me think... oh ya, i was hospitalised due to heart problem...

                                                             From my bed ...

Actually i had it since from the past 6 months... could be from July 13... the symptoms were i feel bloated, stomach pain and not enouhgh breath. I could easily feel tired while walking or doing anything which needs energy so there must be somthing wrong with me. At first i thought it was my blader why? because i had it operated in 2009 to removed the 45 pebbles from the bladder and i thought that stones would grow again due to the same symptoms.

So i took some effort to try to removed it through a traditional way which i found from the internet and believe me some of the ingrediets such as Magnesium Sulphate and Olive oil are rare to me. But thank God mom gave me a bottle of Olive oil which she bought from Perth Australia so i have ot find the Mg2SO4 myself. But finally i found all items that i need and follow the method closely for a week. The result that i should get was the stones would comes out in my urine on the 6 to the 7th days which frustratingly did not happened!

So i did hope it is not the bladder problem anymore but only God knows. From then, i did skipped some meals and 2 flight to KL in August and November was so miserable! I did not eat in the plane and the stomach pain was so killing me! i din't enjoy the trip at all whichi did regret!
I did see Dr Chong and i couldn't blame him because he is not a specialist. On my first trip to see him, he advise me to see speecialist but i did not instead i asked for some stomach pain medication and again i visited him 3 months later on the same reason. He gave me some antibiotics and some pain killers and also sleeping pils which caused me to sleep like a baby but it did not settled my issue. So on the 3 December 13, 7PM, my bed mate and i went to the govt hospital hoping to get some miracles. Waited for 45 minutes only then my name was called to be checked. First was my blood pressure, body temperature and few questionaire. All are normal. Then they check my heart using cardiogram. The result is slightly normal cuase the reading was quite low but within spec. Maybe to them being obese the reading should be on the high side.
So i was asked to wait outside for the doctor's turn to checked on me. The waiting session was a terrible experience. Form 9.30 PM continue untill 3.00 in the morning and everyone was cold and tired. Bed mate couldn't stand anymore so she spoke with one of the doctor in the room but surprisingly she was chased outside. So we decided to go home because we need to go to work that morning. But i didn't i went to our specialist at KPJ on the next day and they do their routine checked and also xray and found out that my left lung where some of my heart was hidden was dislocate more to the left where as my right lung was in its normal position. So I was asked to see a specialist Dr Ang on the same day and being hospitalised that night.
To cut the story short, i experienced endogram and i lose 15 kg of weight in form of liquid and i have boxes of drugs to consume and the best thing is i have 2 weeks hospitalization leave, continue with another week for Christmas leave.
Now i feel so much better. I can run, sleep, walk and do normal activities without being tired easily. But i'm under water intake restriction. I can only dirnk up to 1.2-1.5 liter of liquid per day. That was tough actually since i love to drink soda! But i managed and since i'm under medication, i know that life is precious and God is in control of my life.